I haven't talked or texted RO in about 48 hours. This is my choice. A few friends have recommended this to us as fastest way to getting to the new normal.
I'm actually enjoying myself. I've spent a little more time working this week, but that has allowed me to get ahead of my work worries.
I don't watch TV now. I've also stopped drinking. Those two activities have freed up more time and energy.
This weekend I'm going away to C2's vacation cabin. I wanted some time alone. I'm also a little worried that if I stay in the city then I'll spend my first weekend as a new single man cruising for sex on the internet. The cabin will give me a place to collect my thoughts and plan a little.
C2 informed the neighbor that I would at his cabin and is paying her to clean a little and give me a key. She is uh... interesting...
>>>>>> BC (a friend) will be at the place this weekend as well. I'm just
>>>>>> trying to ensure someone is there. If you need to be at work, please say
>>>>>> That’s wonderful..I am excited to have someone to talk to...lol You want me to get him a few paper plates and
>>>>>> solo cups? I have a few extra pans I can take down there..I want him to be
>>>>>> comfortable..What time will he be arriving..I will leave key under the mat
>>>>>> downstairs for him? I will get him some soap and shampoo?
> Sorry I know I am a pain in the rear end..May I buy dishwasher
> detergent? When I go to thrift store tomorrow I am going to buy a few
> cheap kitchen supplies if that’s ok, hand held can opener? Maybe a
> couple baking dishes just in case? I will be very thrifty..They are
> only going to be a few dollars and a few pieces of silverware and
> spatula etc if they appear brandnew? I am just trying to make it easy
> on your friends cause to go back to town for a few items 10 miles up[
> and back..will not be very relaxing for them..Unless you think you
> have a few kitchen supplies in spare room?
> I promise this is last email..
This weekend away may not be as away as I hope.
Still Pondering ... Thinking....
2 days ago