I talked to Harry again. I told him that I was scared when I dated him. That I had knots in my stomach when i wasn't with him. We talked about it for a while. I think he's happy with Chris. I've got to give this up.

We also talked about fishing and kayaking and stuff like that.

Harry's home phone is now disconnected. He really is moving in with Chris.

Right now I never want to call him again; for my own good.

I have to get over this. I want a good relationship. I've got to be a better person.