Their has been fallout from dinner. The revelations upset one of the partners. His partner sent an email to everyone apologizing profusly and promising it would never happen again.

Next time we'll stick to safe conversation. Like abortion, or politics.

I don't have bestiality stories. From feeding caves (They have a very rough tongue) I never wanted them to suck me. From having to clean up from behind them, I never wanted to fuck them. It never occured to me to go after other fauna.

Besides I was having sex with real men by the time I was 14. I never needed animals.

Tonight the movie potluck was... good? odd? different? We learnt way too much about each other.

It started off good. But then halfway through dinner I jokingly said that I should start a betting pool on which of the couples would break up first. The couples twisted my arm and forced me to elaborate on my joke. They both wanted to know what i saw in them that would cause the end of their relationships.

I awkwardly answered their questions. I tried to change the subject often but they wouldn't let me.

After I got through my explanation the stories started to come out. They started to talk about all their dark secrets and bizarre eye openers such as who had sex with animals (When they were young. Not now) and how often and the results. (FYI. Don't fuck cats. They scratch)

We all agreed that tonights conversation should never be mentioned again.

I may have to password protect my Journal for a few days. Matt has gotten wind of this journal. John stumbled on it, but didn't realize it was about his circle of friends. Matt want's the URL. The next time Matt and John talk will be Thursday. If this journal comes up. I'll lock it for a few days to throw Matt off the trail.

I haven't been doing much. I'm not taking the pain killers now. The new found pain has really slowed me down. I think the wound is healing though-- just very slowly.

Friday morning I had my surgery. It went well. I'm on hydrocodon right now. It really makes me feel numb.

Saturday my friends A&N from Toronto were in town. I gave them a tour of Mt Rainier. We went to Sunrise and had a spectacular view

I've spent the past hour removing a phrase from this journal, and replacing it with PB. Some one else close to me stumbled on my journal while looking for that phrase.

Steven was with me when it happened. We both had to control our laughter. The finder didn't realize he was talking to the author.

I can't really say what the new product is. It's nothing mysterious or revolutionary. Mostly it's an old idea done simply.

When I talked to my new manager today, he mentioned that he was given this project on Monday-- he only has one day more of experience than I. Right now we are a little like the blind leading the blind.

Wow. My job just changed. Very fast. This morning my manager walked into my office and said a new product needed help from an experienced developer. My name came up. Hours later I report to someone new.

This Friday I'm having an out patient day surguery. Nothing risky. Kind of gross. This is the email C2 and I had on the subject. It's oversharing. You've been warned.

From: BC
Sent: Tuesday, August 19, 2003 10:28 AM
To: C2
Subject: Movie

Hey. Can you make sure your roomate get's the invite to Dinner? I didn't have
his email at home.

What are you doing this Friday? I'm having a day surgery on Friday and
need a ride to and from the Hospital. Arrive time is 7:30am. Not sure when I
get out. If you want, you can spend the night at my place.

The surgury isn't scary. I'll tell you all about it later.

Barry

From: "C2"
To: "BC"
Sent: Tuesday, August 19, 2003 10:28 AM
Subject: RE: Movie

Barry
I'll let him know. Thanks. Yes, I can deliver you to and fro the
hospital. Finally going ahead with the sex-change thing huh? So will
it be Brenda or Belinda? (I assume that you'd want to stay with an 'B'
name.)

R/C2

-----Original Message-----
From: BC
Sent: Tuesday, August 19, 2003 10:50 AM
To: C2
Subject: Re: Movie

I was thinking about Babette.

While I'm having the sex change, the doctor is also going to poke at a
recurring boil on my rear. The ugly boil just won't look good next to my
shiny new vaginia.

Weird Triva-- don't scrub your crack with soap and a cloth. Keep it
clean with plain water.

Barry

From: "C2"
To: "BC"
Sent: Tuesday, August 19, 2003 10:28 AM
Subject: RE: Movie

Uh.... I wish bananas were 29 cents a pound! I haven't been able to
find them for less than 79 cents a pound for some time now.


R/C2

Gotta delete pictures.

The "PB" thing is starting to talk off. What's a PBr? Well, It's just a cute name for our gang. Behr made up a bunch of PB caps-- "PB" caps for those who are under 5'7'', "PB Protector" for those that are 6'2'' and above and "PB Pal" for every one else.

Now, many guys want a pb cap. They think it's a semi-secret club and want to belong. The truth is all you really need to do is convince Behr to make you a cap.

C2 mentioned that we are becoming our own A-Gay crowd.

Welcome back John!

The Factoria Mall is the closest mall to me. But, it's hard to drive to. There is no good way to get there. I tried to use Yahoo Maps and Map Quest to plot a route. Both failed. Yahoo Maps can show me the mall on a map, but can't figure out how to get there. Map Quest does a little better. It gives me directions to the vicinity, but then warns me that it can't guide me for the last 0.25 miles

Sigh.

Very fun weekend.

Saturday we went flafting on the Yakima river. Basically, you fload down the river in a raft. drinking and shooting water pistols at each other, and other flafters.

Saturday evening I went to NX4. Mostly I hung out by a camp fire. They also held a game show. Sort of a gay version of jepordy/weakest link.

One of the categories was "Body Parts." When Body Parts was picked, five men would go up behind a blind and flash a body part-- shoulder chest, belly button. The contestants then had to mach the body part to the body.

Of course for the 8000 point body part, the guys had to flash their dicks. On stage. Two two hundred drunk men.

Three porn stars were there. They had porn star looks. Large muscles. Handsome from a distance. But, as C2 said, they looked like they were ridden hard and put away wet.

I camped over Saturday night.

I had breakfast with the gang Saturday morning. We took down the tents and then left for home. I napped a bit in the afternoon, and went out to the Cuff again in the evening

This weekend is Northern Xposure 4. A sort of camping/party/fund raiser for Lambert House.

We drove up last night and set up the tents.

Some of the guys are very excited by NX4-- Behr, the Tease and Sandy keep talking about how much fun they had last year. Matt and I are more jaded. To me it looks like the Cuff crowd with some cute out of town men. Several times I've heard "It's not a sex party. It's what you make of it." But, it looks like a number of the attendies are making it a cruising/sex fest.

I'm trying to clearly figure out my position here. I'm not against no-commitment sex-- I know I've had lots of that. At the same time I'm not interested in guys who are always and only on the prowl.

Tonight was Matt's birthday. We had dinner and then went bowling. This was the first time I've bowled in over a decade. I suck at bowling. Maybe I'll try again in 10 years.

I spent yesterday with Vic and his kids. Vic got some tickets to a Mariners vs Jays game and he invited me along-- Steven was out of town for work.

It was a good day.

I met up with him and the kids for lunch. We watched Agent Cody Banks; one of those mediocre kids movies where the good guys don't get hurt and the child-star becomes a hero.

We left for the stadium at about 2:30pm. (For a 7pm game) One of Vic's kids has a broken leg, so he wanted to avoid as many people and complications as possible. We killed a few hours hanging out by Safeco Field. I'm still amazed how expensive that area is. Even on the street, pop was $3.50. A fitted cap was $25.00. A hotdog was $4.00.

We watched the warm up. Because one son had a broken leg, the stadium people put us in wheel chair seats-- better seats than the ones Vic bought!

Mariners lost 5-3. Vic's kids are Toronto fans, so they were happy.

While we drove home a Canadian goose decided to walk right in the middle of the off ramp. I ran over it. I felt bad. It was right in the middle of my lane.

I just back from a road trip to eastern washington. We lucked out. It rained in Seattle over the weekend, but was sunny and warm east of the mountains.

Matt, Sandy and C2 came along.

We left Saturday morning. Saw the sights along the Mt Baker Hiway. Went rattle snake hunting in Pipe Stone Canyon (We didn't find any snakes, but we did find several deer skulls) and then crashed at Matt's cabin.

Sunday morning. we said "Hi" to Matt's grandmother and then drove south to Chelan Falls. We skinny dipped in the Chalen river for a few hours. Then we drove to Levenworth, had dinner there, the headed back to Seattle.

All in all, a good road trip.

Last night, Steven, Matt, Sandy, C2, the Woofmyster and I had dinner at Vincino's

The waiter was the wordiest man I have ever met....

"Good evening Gentleman. I would like to present to you the menus so that you may read them and decide what you would like to eat this evening."

"Excuse me Gentleman. I apologize for interupting your conversation. But, if I may, I would like to consult with you on your dinner selections tonight."

Food was good though.

I bought a big television last night. Matt and Sandy were my TV consultants. Afterwards we had dinner. I played with the TV and the stereo till 2am.

There sure is a big rat's nest of cables behind the TV.

Last night, for the first night in weeks, I stayed home. I liked it.

I played hockey last night. It was a very close game. We lost 4-3. It was 3-3 when there were 40 seconds left.

I don't feel too bad becasuse only one goal went in on my shift.

This was the last game of the regular season. Playoffs start next week. I can't wait till the season ends. I'd like to have a month off of hockey.

I just got this email from C2...
It took forever but I got my herpes2 test results back and I'm neg. I just thought I'd share that.

I replied
Thank you for sharing.

C2 is a participant in an STD research project. He's regularly tested for HIV and a wide variety of STDs. The tests stress him. It's odd how being tested for a disease even though you probably don't have it feels worse than not being tested.

I'm back from Oregon. We spent the weekend at a cabin on the coast. It was good. We're going to try and see each other again-- if schedules work out. He's a police officer and works odd hours. Our weekends rarely work out.