Things are quiet at work. We are going through our bug backlog. We don’t know what’s on the schedule next, so we are in kind of a make work mode. The specs for the next project haven’t been completed yet, and my division is big enough that every developer doesn’t need to be tightly involved with the high level specs.

I sometimes wonder about my abilities. I’ve been in this division, yet I’m still a lower peon dev. Mind you, there are lots of lower peon devs that have been around for longer than I have, but still, questions remain. Has my career stagnated? How would I tell? There are lots of smart people around me, and we all can’t get promotions.

I am considering moving to another division. I’d like to go off on my own, contracting or consulting, by I don’t have a green card, so I can’t quiet my job.

We have 8 people on my hockey team this year. I’m not expecting good things. I’m going to try my hardest, and use the ice time to improve my stick handing. But still, it would be good to have warm feelings going into the season.

I hate my emotions. In mid August, I broke up with Harry, because I wasn’t falling in love with him. Now, for some dumb reason, I miss him, and can’t stop thinking about him. I called him up once, and left him a message. He didn’t return my call. That’s probably a good thing. I want to call Andy up, and tell him what I feel, but I know what he’d say. He’d shake his head, insult me, and remind me that I have a habit of breaking up, and getting back together, and breaking up, and getting back together.

What is with me? What can’t relationships be simple? Why can’t I meet a guy, know that I’m falling in love with him, and go from there? I’ve fallen in love before. Why hasn’t it happened in a long time? Why does it happen after I end things with a guy, and stop speaking to him for a month or more? It could be absence makes the heart grow fonder. Or, it could be that I want what I haven’t got.

I have to remind my self of all the reasons why I stopped seeing Harry. He chews tobacco. I would be committing my self to a life in white trash rural Washington. The sex wasn’t that great. He couldn’t make his own decisions; I don’t want to see someone who wants me to be their personal manager

Would I miss Harry if Terry were single? I haven’t run across Terry for a few weeks. I wonder what he’s up to?
Work has been uneventful. We are going through our bug backlog. We don’t know what’s on the schedule next, so we are in kind of a make work mode. The specs for the next project haven’t been completed yet, and my division is big enough that every developer doesn’t need to be tightly involved with the high level specs.

I sometimes wonder about my abilities. I’ve been in this division, yet I’m still a lower peon dev. Mind you, there are lots of lower peon devs that have been around for longer than I have, but still, questions remain. Has my career stagnated? How would I tell? There are lots of smart people around me, and we all can’t get promotions.

I am considering moving to another division. I’d like to go off on my own, contracting or consulting, by I don’t have a green card, so I can’t quiet my job.

We have 8 people on my hockey team this year. I’m not expecting good things. I’m going to try my hardest, and use the ice time to improve my stick handing. But still, it would be good to have warm feelings going into the season.

I hate my emotions. In mid August, I broke up with Harry, because I wasn’t falling in love with him. Now, for some dumb reason, I miss him, and can’t stop thinking about him. I called him up once, and left him a message. He didn’t return my call. That’s probably a good thing. I want to call Andy up, and tell him what I feel, but I know what he’d say. He’d shake his head, insult me, and remind me that I have a habit of breaking up, and getting back together, and breaking up, and getting back together.

What is with me? What can’t relationships be simple? Why can’t I meet a guy, know that I’m falling in love with him, and go from there? I’ve fallen in love before. Why hasn’t it happened in a long time? Why does it happen after I end things with a guy, and stop speaking to him for a month or more? It could be absence makes the heart grow fonder. Or, it could be that I want what I haven’t got.

I have to remind my self of all the reasons why I stopped seeing Harry. He chews tobacco. I would be committing my self to a life in white trash rural Washington. The sex wasn’t that great. He couldn’t make his own decisions; I don’t want to see someone who wants me to be their personal manager

Would I miss Harry if Terry were single? I haven’t run across Terry for a few weeks. I wonder what he’s up to?

I feel so mature.